Lies the Devil Told Me (The Lies My Fantasy World Supports)

· I will never get better because therapy never works and medications are a scam of the big pharma companies

· I will eventually die by suicide because I am hopelessly trapped

· I do not have a substance abuse problem—it is only anxiety and OCD

· All people are inconsistent, untrustworthy, and unreliable

· I am using people or wasting their time if they are fulfilling some kind of need for me

· People do not really care about or want to help me

· My family is too self-centered to care or understand my problems

· OCD compulsions will keep bad things from happening

· Drugs will help my anxiety, insomnia, depression, and social anxiety

· I have permanently damaged Grant with my behavior and he will have mental health problems as an adult and will never have a happy marriage

· God abandoned me when I turned my back on Him

· I can never find any long term happiness

· If I want something done, I should do it myself—I do not need or like other people

· If I admit to loving or needing someone, they will see it as inappropriate and they will abandon me

· I am a bad mother

· I am a bad person

· I do not have enough faith

· All therapists/psychiatrists are crazy

· Medication will make me a zombie

· I will never have a close relationship with my family members

· My depression and anxiety are my identity

· I will never be able to travel

· Nobody has a “normal,” non-chaotic life—all families are dysfunctional

· My miscarried children are not real and I need to move on and forget about them—they were only dreams

· My Christian friends will not understand my drug problem or my suicidal thoughts, so I should not share my story with them

· I do not need to grieve for the loss of “hoped for” children

· I am incapable of having or properly caring for another child

· We should not consider adoption

· I can’t do this—I should give up